Labor and Delivery.....

I am now 26 weeks along, I have 14 to go. I am counting down the days, waiting the arrival of our daughter. We have chosen the name Emma Jane. Of course if for some reason this turns out to be a boy then his name will be Arnold Scott. I had a doctors appointment last week regular check-up and glucose test. While I was there he asked me what kind of pain meds I would want. I asked " you mean like an epidural?" I said "I wont be having one." He said " Are you sure?" I said "yes I am sure, I had both my kids naturally." He said "Oh so you know whats coming." I was like yeah. I hate the idea of a giant needle penetrating my spine.

Labor and Delivery. Ive done it twice and it was very different. When I had Jordan, I woke up in the middle of the night because I though I kept having to use the bathroom, except it was pink. I went to the hospital about 4 a.m. they kept me for a few hours and then the nurse came in handed me a sleeping pill and said they were sending me home. So I went down to the lobby and waited for my husband (now ex) and dad to get the cars. While standing there I felt it, my water broke! So back up we went. I slept for quite awhile. Then came time, at 235 p.m. here he was. I had taken Lamaze so it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.

Conor was a different story. I started having contractions on a Friday. I didn't realize that's what was happening since I really didn't have any with Jordan until I was already in the delivery room. All day Friday and Saturday I kept having them. Mike had a game Saturday night and I was at home counting to see how far apart they were. By the time he got home I said "I'm sorry, I know your tired but I think its time." So off we went. We got to the hospital at about 300 a.m. and the contractions were bad. Really bad. I asked the nurse about the epidural. I never thought in a million years I would ask for that. She said she would get the anesthesiologist in there and we could get it done. But he was busy and by the time he was free I was too far along. I'm glad looking back though that he was busy. I don't think I could have handled that needle. The nurse had given me some kind of low dose pain meds in my IV and all it did was make me feel loopy. I didn't even realize when the doctor came in that it was time. All of the sudden it was time and at 633 am little Conor was here.

I love the fact that I have been able to have my kids naturally. Now don't get me wrong I don't think women who use epidurals are weak or any less of a woman. Its a very personal choice. Mine is all about the needles. I hate having a needle in my body for any length of time. My mom thinks this is funny because I have so many tattoos but tattoo needles are a different kind of needle. Anyway. I'm looking forward to having this baby, naturally. It will be bittersweet. I'm looking forward to having her but knowing its my last is kind of sad. But we're complete. So heres to the next 14 weeks, hopefully I can survive it! :)

Nine years later......

Tomorrow my oldest child will be 9! That may not seem that old to those with older children but for me its a big deal. Hes only one year away from double digits! Jordan Michael Sumner was born on June 13, 2001 at 2:35 in the afternoon. I had a pretty uneventful pregnancy and what I thought to be a not too bad delivery considering it was my first and I had no drugs. I was scared as to what kind of mom I would be. Jordan is an amazing child. Hes been through a lot in the last 9 years. My marriage to my first husband wasnt one of love and kindness. Jordan saw a lot he probably shouldnt have which is just one of the many reasons I finally chose to leave my ex. During the divorce he didnt seem fazed although Im sure deep down somewhere he is he just doesnt show it. Then I met up again with an old flame and Jordan seemed to really take to him. Mike moved in and Jordan just went with the flow. They have fun together and Mike loves him like hes his own. Now he gets to see a loving, caring relationship. Within months of Mike and I getting married I was pregnant. I was scared that Jordan would think I was trying to replace him. But in the end I couldnt have been more wrong. Conor Kael was born on November 11th 2007 at 6:30 in the morning. From the very beginning Jordan has been like a second care giver. Hes very protective of Conor and helps him to do things and of course teaches him things. Even though they are 6 years apart they are two peas in a pod. Very close. I am of course thrilled.

Now Im pregnant with baby number 3, a girl and although hes a little apprehensive I know that he'll be a great brother to her. I couldnt be more proud of Jordan. Hes a really big helper when it comes to any chores that need to be done. He really loves Conor and they have fun together. He was doing okay in public school but when the teacher decided she was going to hold him back and I said no lets try homeschooling he just went along with it and he has done so well that we're going to continue. He didnt even mind not being in a public school setting. Even though I know he misses his friend from school. I cant wait to see what the next 9 years will bring. By then he'll be 18! Right now though Im enjoying him being young and naive. So much out there that I dont want him to have to experience. Heres to you kid!